Will power and binging

[LexieA]

I'm not completely sure where to put this question. I'll put it here for now.

I'm underweight. I have zero problem not having or wanting gluten products. However, my weight dips every time I am under stress or get sick from other foods or for example I just had the flu. I have a scathingly critical family and an unfortunate past history with someone like that. Both parents and 2 siblings criticize me at any opportunity and gossip about me. For reasons unknown or understood they appear to hate my guts. Which is kind of mutual at this point. For me it's more like I accept now, after a lot of pain, that that is the way they are. I'm explaining this because I think it may relate to this problem I'm having. It seems that I've gotten a little bit better as far as my digestion. I can eat a lot more variety of vegetables and tolerate some fruit (though if I have too much fruit I still don't do well). Then something happens like I encounter a family member and have a completely insane discussion with them. I realize this is useless from many sad other conversations but some part of me still seems to want to have some kind of reason from them. (But you can't reason with the unreasonable. Read that somewhere, lol. ) Then my weight dips. I just had the flu for the first time in several years and my weight went to it's lowest point.

I know I need some kind of fat but it seems that all nuts except roasted plain organic almonds from nuts.com! I can't have oils (so far), olive oil makes me feel sick, avocados (so far) have made me VERY sick with headache and vomiting. I can have a very small amount of chocolate fats, but not much. I can have a tiny bit of Supernatural brand lightly salted or plain butter, but not much. In fact I would be better off without butter at all because my body just doesn't like dairy right now, but this small amount in broth or on rice seems okay. Because I'm desperate for fat. So that leaves the almonds. And this is the problem. Logically I know that if I had 4-6 almonds a day or better yet made almond milk so I don't have to digest the fiber but just get the fats and oils, and had a glass a day or see how that goes, would be best for me. A doctor told me if I just gain 1 pound a week that would be okay. (Though it's very hard to just maintain a weight.)

But what happens is, I'm not really sure, I get HUNGRY suddenly and I feel I CAN NOT wait until the soup is cooked or the rice is cooked or whatever. So I grab a handful telling myself okay I'll just have this handful. But it tastes so good then I have another. And another. I'm just being honest here. At first it feels okay, even nice, but a few hours later, and then also the following morning I feel lethargic, weird in my mind, some mild allergy type stuff like ringing ears and itchy skin, but really a lot of weird mental stuff-the mental stuff here is from the food. It's not the worst reactions I've had by far, but it's enough to depress me and make the next day much harder. I know it seems obvious to probably make a bunch of food ahead but at the moment I am still very weak and by the time I cut all the veg for just that day's soup, soak and rinse the rice, feed the kitty, wash the dishes, etc, I feel like I need to rest and don't feel at all up to making more food for the next day or week. I know this sounds pathetic. How hard can it be. In text it sounds like nothing. But somehow I keep needing to go rest like I'm 100 years old. Even just typing this all I want to go to sleep and it's 9 am.

If I have no almonds in the house then I can't have any fat. I never had a problem with will power before that I can think of. I did my homework (mostly:) exercised, joined stuff like volleyball for fun or gymnastics (not now though:(  or yoga, etc. If I wanted to lose a few pounds before I would just not eat Doritos, lol, and I didn't suffer for it. I had will power. I guess. But this almond binging thing is crazy. It makes me feel like I'm so weak willed and that my mind isn't my own all the time. This sounds so totally stupid. Today I'm actually looking up online how to have more willpower. Yesterday I told myself, just don't eat them and it's okay if you feel uncomfortable for a few minutes, you'll survive. But later I had a handful of almonds. Today I woke not feel as good as a few days ago when I wasn't doing this.  My brain is also needing more energy. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll just die, like keep losing 2 pounds a week and then just die. That's when I'm at my lowest weight like now.

Those family members have definitely affected my well-being and healing. With the almond thing I kind of hear them in my head saying I'm so weak willed, but instead of spurring me on to not have them, it makes me feel like I'm somehow weirdly fulfilling their evil thoughts about me. That was a problem I had in high school. I would sometimes get into trouble because they kept telling me I was a bad girl (actually since 2nd grade when I stole some sweets/candy from the teacher at recess bcs she only gave them as rewards to the super smart kids when they got the answers right. My mother came to my room every night that week, just when I should have gone to sleep and say to my dad, ask her, ask her, and then he'd keep saying Did you do it? ...blah blah, I didn't answer because NOW I think I felt so sad and unloved and they never spoke to me just NORMALLY and asked what happened. Sounds stupid but since then I decided I was bad, like intrinsically. And in high school (totally subconsciously) acted out to get SOMEONE TO NOTICE ME and COME GET ME and you know... ) But I also know my body is starving, literally, and knows almonds bring instant fat and some of what it needs.

So do you think I'm really weak willed and weird or is it understandable I keep having binges on them when it would be far better to have them in a measured way? Has anyone else experienced this strong desire to eat a bunch of something while healing? Something that's good in small measures but that maybe you shouldn't eat all at once? Would making even 2 days of food in advance help do you think? I might be able to do that. I've asked and gotten really good answers on another thread about a bread maker, purchasing and using one. Though I'm a little afraid but hopeful about introducing bread back into my diet. Or would almond milk maybe make me feel less bad then the whole almonds but have just a cup a day or even every other day to start with?

I tried writing a scull and crossbones on the almonds but that didn't really work for long, lol. I do notice I do this more after an encounter with my family. I get suddenly stressed and just think "I don't care, I need some almonds right now" and that's how it starts. Then comes the bad self feelings (why am I so weak, blah blah) and then the physical stuff.

This post is WAY too long. I know. It could probably be written in 2 paragraphs. But I don't have the energy to do it. I'll probably feel embarrassed after posting it too. But I think I'm going to anyway. And yes I would be happy to see a psychologist, I do on and off anyway. I am going to read about will power today though.  I seriously wish I had a chef just while I'm healing to come cook for me ALL DAY and I would eat that food and rest. Totally rest and take long walks and then I might be okay.

[kareng]

1 hour ago, LexieA said:

I'm not completely sure where to put this question. I'll put it here for now.

I'm underweight. I have zero problem not having or wanting gluten products. However, my weight dips every time I am under stress or get sick from other foods or for example I just had the flu. I have a scathingly critical family and an unfortunate past history with someone like that. Both parents and 2 siblings criticize me at any opportunity and gossip about me. For reasons unknown or understood they appear to hate my guts. Which is kind of mutual at this point. For me it's more like I accept now, after a lot of pain, that that is the way they are. I'm explaining this because I think it may relate to this problem I'm having. It seems that I've gotten a little bit better as far as my digestion. I can eat a lot more variety of vegetables and tolerate some fruit (though if I have too much fruit I still don't do well). Then something happens like I encounter a family member and have a completely insane discussion with them. I realize this is useless from many sad other conversations but some part of me still seems to want to have some kind of reason from them. (But you can't reason with the unreasonable. Read that somewhere, lol. ) Then my weight dips. I just had the flu for the first time in several years and my weight went to it's lowest point.

I know I need some kind of fat but it seems that all nuts except roasted plain organic almonds from nuts.com! I can't have oils (so far), olive oil makes me feel sick, avocados (so far) have made me VERY sick with headache and vomiting. I can have a very small amount of chocolate fats, but not much. I can have a tiny bit of Supernatural brand lightly salted or plain butter, but not much. In fact I would be better off without butter at all because my body just doesn't like dairy right now, but this small amount in broth or on rice seems okay. Because I'm desperate for fat. So that leaves the almonds. And this is the problem. Logically I know that if I had 4-6 almonds a day or better yet made almond milk so I don't have to digest the fiber but just get the fats and oils, and had a glass a day or see how that goes, would be best for me. A doctor told me if I just gain 1 pound a week that would be okay. (Though it's very hard to just maintain a weight.)

But what happens is, I'm not really sure, I get HUNGRY suddenly and I feel I CAN NOT wait until the soup is cooked or the rice is cooked or whatever. So I grab a handful telling myself okay I'll just have this handful. But it tastes so good then I have another. And another. I'm just being honest here. At first it feels okay, even nice, but a few hours later, and then also the following morning I feel lethargic, weird in my mind, some mild allergy type stuff like ringing ears and itchy skin, but really a lot of weird mental stuff-the mental stuff here is from the food. It's not the worst reactions I've had by far, but it's enough to depress me and make the next day much harder. I know it seems obvious to probably make a bunch of food ahead but at the moment I am still very weak and by the time I cut all the veg for just that day's soup, soak and rinse the rice, feed the kitty, wash the dishes, etc, I feel like I need to rest and don't feel at all up to making more food for the next day or week. I know this sounds pathetic. How hard can it be. In text it sounds like nothing. But somehow I keep needing to go rest like I'm 100 years old. Even just typing this all I want to go to sleep and it's 9 am.

If I have no almonds in the house then I can't have any fat. I never had a problem with will power before that I can think of. I did my homework (mostly:) exercised, joined stuff like volleyball for fun or gymnastics (not now though:(  or yoga, etc. If I wanted to lose a few pounds before I would just not eat Doritos, lol, and I didn't suffer for it. I had will power. I guess. But this almond binging thing is crazy. It makes me feel like I'm so weak willed and that my mind isn't my own all the time. This sounds so totally stupid. Today I'm actually looking up online how to have more willpower. Yesterday I told myself, just don't eat them and it's okay if you feel uncomfortable for a few minutes, you'll survive. But later I had a handful of almonds. Today I woke not feel as good as a few days ago when I wasn't doing this.  My brain is also needing more energy. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll just die, like keep losing 2 pounds a week and then just die. That's when I'm at my lowest weight like now.

Those family members have definitely affected my well-being and healing. With the almond thing I kind of hear them in my head saying I'm so weak willed, but instead of spurring me on to not have them, it makes me feel like I'm somehow weirdly fulfilling their evil thoughts about me. That was a problem I had in high school. I would sometimes get into trouble because they kept telling me I was a bad girl (actually since 2nd grade when I stole some sweets/candy from the teacher at recess bcs she only gave them as rewards to the super smart kids when they got the answers right. My mother came to my room every night that week, just when I should have gone to sleep and say to my dad, ask her, ask her, and then he'd keep saying Did you do it? ...blah blah, I didn't answer because NOW I think I felt so sad and unloved and they never spoke to me just NORMALLY and asked what happened. Sounds stupid but since then I decided I was bad, like intrinsically. And in high school (totally subconsciously) acted out to get SOMEONE TO NOTICE ME and COME GET ME and you know... ) But I also know my body is starving, literally, and knows almonds bring instant fat and some of what it needs.

So do you think I'm really weak willed and weird or is it understandable I keep having binges on them when it would be far better to have them in a measured way? Has anyone else experienced this strong desire to eat a bunch of something while healing? Something that's good in small measures but that maybe you shouldn't eat all at once? Would making even 2 days of food in advance help do you think? I might be able to do that. I've asked and gotten really good answers on another thread about a bread maker, purchasing and using one. Though I'm a little afraid but hopeful about introducing bread back into my diet. Or would almond milk maybe make me feel less bad then the whole almonds but have just a cup a day or even every other day to start with?

I tried writing a scull and crossbones on the almonds but that didn't really work for long, lol. I do notice I do this more after an encounter with my family. I get suddenly stressed and just think "I don't care, I need some almonds right now" and that's how it starts. Then comes the bad self feelings (why am I so weak, blah blah) and then the physical stuff.

This post is WAY too long. I know. It could probably be written in 2 paragraphs. But I don't have the energy to do it. I'll probably feel embarrassed after posting it too. But I think I'm going to anyway. And yes I would be happy to see a psychologist, I do on and off anyway. I am going to read about will power today though.  I seriously wish I had a chef just while I'm healing to come cook for me ALL DAY and I would eat that food and rest. Totally rest and take long walks and then I might be okay.

Have you thought about getting some sort of counseling/ psychological help?  Seems like you could use someone to help with coping with your family issues ... maybe one that specializes in eating disorders.  Sounds to me like your problems with your family are affecting your eating and digestion.

[TexasJen]

I don't think it's weird at all.  I am this way about ice cream....I can't buy a 1/2 gallon because it will be gone in a couple of days!  I have to buy small quantities - either a pint or even the individual cups and bring them home one at a time.  I get this way when I am very hungry.  I wonder if this is just you being underfed because of your food intolerances. If you can find some food that you can tolerate (or the reason why you can't tolerate food), maybe the symptoms will go away as you gain weight and eat more regular meals.

It seems like there are probably a couple of other ways to get fat and calories in your diet. Have you tried coconut oil?  What about meat - especially red meat..?

Have you tried going to a dietician and getting more recommendations?

Have you had your celiac antibodies tested recently?  Maybe your inability to gain weight/eat is persistent celiac?  Or maybe some other illness - Crohn's, IBD etc?

As for families, I can't help you. Mine is as crazy as yours.  When I go to my in-laws (who have a knack for pushing my buttons), I just nod and smile. I don't engage in their craziness. And if the conversations are too nuts, I excuse myself for a walk outside.

Good luck!

[LexieA]

34 minutes ago, kareng said:

Have you thought about getting some sort of counseling/ psychological help?  Seems like you could use someone to help with coping with your family issues ... maybe one that specializes in eating disorders.  Sounds to me like your problems with your family are affecting your eating and digestion.

Yes, definitely.  I'm very open to doing that. I've seen them before - in fact since high school- but I like the idea of seeing one to do with eating disorders. Having my stomach in knots from emotional stuff doesn't seem the best thing for digestion I agree. It has really helped me before too and given me a sense of relief, balance and normality. I think it's something that can creep back in so maybe I could try some short term counseling. I'll check it out today. I really want to get on top of things. I think I may start taking walks in the morning - plan some more r&r into my day. This is one of my favorite times of the year and I need to get out of my head more. Doing more physical stuff like that gives me more energy, I sleep better & feel happier. That alongside some counseling sounds good to me. I'll seriously consider that, thank you.

[LexieA]

57 minutes ago, TexasJen said:

I don't think it's weird at all.  I am this way about ice cream....I can't buy a 1/2 gallon because it will be gone in a couple of days!  I have to buy small quantities - either a pint or even the individual cups and bring them home one at a time.  I get this way when I am very hungry.  I wonder if this is just you being underfed because of your food intolerances. If you can find some food that you can tolerate (or the reason why you can't tolerate food), maybe the symptoms will go away as you gain weight and eat more regular meals.

It seems like there are probably a couple of other ways to get fat and calories in your diet. Have you tried coconut oil?  What about meat - especially red meat..?

Have you tried going to a dietician and getting more recommendations?

Have you had your celiac antibodies tested recently?  Maybe your inability to gain weight/eat is persistent celiac?  Or maybe some other illness - Crohn's, IBD etc?

As for families, I can't help you. Mine is as crazy as yours.  When I go to my in-laws (who have a knack for pushing my buttons), I just nod and smile. I don't engage in their craziness. And if the conversations are too nuts, I excuse myself for a walk outside.

Good luck!

I think walking away physically is about the best thing to do sometimes. Not engaging, "nod and smile" is very wise and what I'm endeavoring to do. So maybe a little extra work with a counselor will help me disengage it completely from my mind - till it's just a very small passing cloud. I realize a lot of people have this kind of thing. I know I can turn my thinking around but yeah may need a little boost.

Thanks for sharing about the ice cream! That does sound pretty much like what's going on. I feel like part of it is just instinctive that my brain/body are going FOOD! Quick, eat that, you will feel better! And you are right that when I've gotten even a bit more weight/nutrients my whole being is more relaxed. The family stuff is there in the background, but the stress of being at too low a weight may be bringing it to the surface and exaggerating it. When I've had very bad food intolerance reactions, as well as being glutened I do get REALLY emotional and all this stuff seems magnified. This might not be a specific intolerance but just a general lack of calories as you say. After I eat several bowls of soup and rice and butter I do feel so much better and more relaxed.

I've tried coconut oil but not recently and there are a lot more foods I can eat now so maybe it's time to try small amounts and see how it goes. That would be so excellent if I could have that. Can you stir fry with that? I've thought about trying stir fry to get some more fat with the vegetables. I'm not quite ready but I want to try more green avocados as an experiment. I read 3333 ... no my cat wrote 3333 and I leave stuff he writes in case it means something.  I read that greener avocados may be less reactionary than ripe ones.

The last I checked which was about 3 months ago all my results are good. I was slightly low on D. I haven't been to a dietician recently. I could try it and see what they say. Meat - I tried to be vegan before I knew about Celiac and I kept having to go back to meat and dairy or I didn't feel well. Like I didn't have enough energy. I wanted to be vegan really badly. Now the problem is when I've tried meat in the last 6 months - probably longer- I didn't do well. I think it's hard for me to digest and fat may be hard for me too. I tried beef several times and kept having horrible nightmares and then would get constipation. I tried rotisserie chicken about a month ago and I didn't get super sick that time but I didn't feel great over the next 5 days either. I've also gotten pretty sick after eating shrimp - but then I am way inland so there is no fresh seafood at all and the lakes are polluted. (I'm such a cheery person. ) We do get bison at the Whole Foods that I used to be able to eat. I'm considering making broth and just putting the meat in there to simmer but then take all the meat out. (Not "bone broth", that made me vomit too. ) Just put the actual meat in there and then maybe I would get some of the fat.

Do you use a certain coconut oil? I can search on here though to see what everyone is using. I think I might experiment with it. It may have just been the fat I couldn't digest before. If I could make some kind of dressing with it I could put it on salads. If I start baking or get the bread maker I could put some in there. Thanks for the suggestions. I feel a bit cheered up now. 

[LexieA]

I'm going to look at these products:

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I'll check on here & their websites for information on gluten. I'll just start very small and see what happens. I'm going to wait a week to calm down and then might try some meat.

[Ennis-TX]

LOL almond binging same thing here I consume about 25lbs every 3-4months. I make almond butter and sell it at farmers markets. I have literally blacked out and found myself shoving handfuls of almonds in my mouth in the past....they are addictive. I had issues with chocolate in the past...but never with cocoa nibs. I buy ground cocoa nibs in bulk and eat them also. I do grain free/gluten free cooking alot. I consume vegan protein powders all the time and also binge on seeds.

Thoughts have you been tested for celiac disease? You might look at getting tested for it, the disease can cause all kinds of other food intolerance issues. Like really ALL my intolerance issue are related to celiac messing up my body. Most of use developed some kind of intolerance or allergy due to the disease. It also causes malnutrition, and many psychological symptoms and anxiety. You might not be  crazy or have a eating disorder it might really be all in your gut with celiac. Look into getting tested. you have to eat at least half a slice a bread a day for 12 weeks if this seems hard the gluten challenge can be done at night before going to bed and sleeping off ill effects.

Check my profile for my food issues...there are others I have not listed that come and go. ...wish you lived near here. I make all kinds of nut and seed butters so they are easier to digest. Also might suggest enzymes...I have to take 2-3time the recommended dose but it enables me to eat and not feel sick later or puke up undigested food 3-5 hours after eating it. Few other things I can think of that might help depending on situation.

[Ennis-TX]

3 minutes ago, LexieA said:

I'm going to look at these products:

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I'll check on here & their websites for information on gluten. I'll just start very small and see what happens. I'm going to wait a week to calm down and then might try some meat.

I use nutiva coconut flour in my bakery, I snack on the lets do organics roasted coconut chips all the time.

[LexieA]

I just phoned Spectrum and they do process gluten ingredients in the same building but did say the usual about "quality control" and "there's no chance of gluten contamination." But that it is not certified gluten free. So I'd have to read more about it and people's experiences on here. I see that they process peanut oil too which I can't eat, though I haven't had anything severe with peanuts, just very bad stomach ache and vomiting/headache. Not sure I have the energy to check the others right now but if I do I'll put it here.

[LexieA]

3 hours ago, Ennis_TX said:

LOL almond binging same thing here I consume about 25lbs every 3-4months. I make almond butter and sell it at farmers markets. I have literally blacked out and found myself shoving handfuls of almonds in my mouth in the past....they are addictive. I had issues with chocolate in the past...but never with cocoa nibs. I buy ground cocoa nibs in bulk and eat them also. I do grain free/gluten free cooking alot. I consume vegan protein powders all the time and also binge on seeds.

Thoughts have you been tested for celiac disease? You might look at getting tested for it, the disease can cause all kinds of other food intolerance issues. Like really ALL my intolerance issue are related to celiac messing up my body. Most of use developed some kind of intolerance or allergy due to the disease. It also causes malnutrition, and many psychological symptoms and anxiety. You might not be  crazy or have a eating disorder it might really be all in your gut with celiac. Look into getting tested. you have to eat at least half a slice a bread a day for 12 weeks if this seems hard the gluten challenge can be done at night before going to bed and sleeping off ill effects.

Check my profile for my food issues...there are others I have not listed that come and go. ...wish you lived near here. I make all kinds of nut and seed butters so they are easier to digest. Also might suggest enzymes...I have to take 2-3time the recommended dose but it enables me to eat and not feel sick later or puke up undigested food 3-5 hours after eating it. Few other things I can think of that might help depending on situation.

Hi Ennis,

I had the blood-work that showed high antibodies but I was afraid to have the endoscopy. I have a lot of anxiety issues and I didn't feel like I could cope with it. My antibodies have gone down now however. I've been gluten-free for about 9 months. It seems like you do really well with all the nuts so that makes me feel that maybe it's okay and I just need to pace myself. Before I couldn't eat anything, including any nuts but now I can have a small amount and feel okay. I'm still getting D though if I eat a lot of nuts - but before I got it within half an hour.

 Which cocoa nibs do you eat if you don't mind my asking. I tried some once but they were not ground and I got some that definitely tasted moldy so that just scared me off. I might try again with the powder. Do cocoa nibs have fat? Can you put them in baked stuff by any chance? I'm thinking of buying a bread machine. Would they mix with juice or would it just separate? I make homemade juice. If I make almond milk I could make smoothies. I'd love to try and make almond yogurt.

What are vegan protein powders? Where can I buy some? What is the purpose of it? Is it just literally to give you extra protein or does it have other nutrients? Would it give me extra calories?

I wish I could have some of your butters too! That sounds amazing!

Are enzymes gentle? I've heard of them but was scared to try them. I don't know why, Sorry for asking 100 questions! You sound very proactive and cool about things. I hope I can get to anything like that point. Thanks Ennis!!

[LexieA]

3 hours ago, Ennis_TX said:

I use nutiva coconut flour in my bakery, I snack on the lets do organics roasted coconut chips all the time.

Oh, that's great to know!! Thanks!!

[Ennis-TX]

27 minutes ago, LexieA said:

Which cocoa nibs do you eat if you don't mind my asking. I tried some once but they were not ground and I got some that definitely tasted moldy so that just scared me off.

I buy Crio Bru, they are roasted cocoa beans all they are is fat and fiber. They go great in baked goods I mix them with a non sugar sweetener and use them for toppings and in protein shakes

 

27 minutes ago, LexieA said:

What are vegan protein powders? Where can I buy some? What is the purpose of it? Is it just literally to give you extra protein or does it have other nutrients? Would it give me extra calories?

Vegan protein powders are for putting on weight and muscles, like body building ones but non dairy. I use Nutra Key V-Pro and MRM Veggie Elite for blends. I also buy pea protein in bulk 5lb canisters for making no carb protein chips and, I buy pumpkin seed and sacha inchi protein also and use them on rotation, they are high in zinc, magnesium so great for muscle recovery. Pumpkin is also great for saratonin and melaltonin so they help with anxiety.

 

27 minutes ago, LexieA said:

Are enzymes gentle? I've heard of them but was scared to try them. I don't know why, Sorry for asking 100 questions! You sound very proactive and cool about things. I hope I can get to anything like that point.

Yes I just Jarrow Formula Vegan enzymes plus before a meal, after a meal I take super papaya enzymes and if I had extra protein I like to take Jarrow Formulas bromelain to help break down the proteins so I can use them easier. Enzymes occur naturally in your body, supplementing them just helps your stomach to break down foods and get more nutrients out of them.

I buy pretty much all my supplements on LuckyVitamin.com Best pricing for them aside from the MRM Veggie elite you get on amazon, the Sacha inchi can be gotten in bulk from Julian Bakery best price, the Nutra Key V-pro amazon, Pumpkin seed protein just started being made by Jarrow Formula cheaper then anyone else and you can get that on Lucky Vitamin . The enzymes can be bought on lucky vitamin.



Few other thoughts if your having issues with anxiety these can be a sign of low b-vitamins while on luckyvitamin look up Liquid Health Stress & Energy, and Liquid Health Neurological support. I use them 1 tbsp each 3 times a day. in combination with my diet anxiety is practically gone and I just deal with stuff.
 

So you tested postive for celiac antibodies, make sure your 100% gluten free, do not eat anything that even comes in contact with gluten. If you live with others you need to have dedicated cook ware for youself.  Residue can send your antibodies back up and it last weeks if not a month or more. Cheating is not a option on this or you damage you self more and have a chance for more issues cropping up. Have you read the newbie 101 section?

Also just a thought if you keep having issues, you might have to drop a few foods. Dairy is big no for many starting off. the enzymes to break down dairy are produced by the tips of the vili in your intestines, these are normally damaged first and the most. Oats, some celiacs react to oats just like gluten grains even gluten free oats so we suggest avoiding any food with them. There are some other common issues

This next part hits off cause you sound like me early on during my gluten free days and I wish I had known this sooner. Do you seem to have worse reactions, burping, bloating, odd stool issues ranging from constipation, gas, and bleeding when eating more sugars and carbs? You might have Ulcerative Colitis also, it is another issue that can develop. The triggers for it are commonly dairy, soy, gluten, fructose, glucose and carbs in general. It is best treated with a ketogenic diet of fats and protein only. Sounds harsh and would be impossible for me without the enzymes. Funny thing is I STILL can not digest meats or animal fat. I puke them up hours later or  in the case of fish and crab I s$#& them out undigested. SO I live on nut butters, my own homemade nut based bread with no carbs, grain free baked goods, green veggies cooked to mush in egg dishes and stir frys. And I found a wonderful no carb noodle and rice supstitue.

[ch88]

You can try mint tea it is known to calm the digestive system. Also i would consider having a snack a few hours before dinner. That way the food is more spread out. Maybe a fruit or vegetable as they are nutritious. i would eat different types of food with each meal. 

[Jmg]

If you google almond binging you'll find you're not alone. There's some interesting theories from the paleo sites about our hunter gatherer past Open Original Shared Link 

Whatever the ancestral influences I'd just like to endorse KarenG's post above. I think speaking to someone neutral but supportive and trained in matters of emotions and food would be very beneficial to you. See if your doctor or a friend can help locate someone with a good reputation. 

Best of luck

 

 

[GFinDC]

Hi LexieA,

Welcome to the forum!

You mentioned itchy skin.  Itchy skin with lesions is a symptom of DH (dermatitis herpetiformis), another celiac condition.

I haven't had problems with any coconut oil brand I've tried so far.  I don't remember anyone posting about having reactions to coconut oil either.  I tend to think most brands of coconut oil are safe for us, but have no proof of that.   I've used Vitacost brand coconut oil and Lou Ann coconut oil with problems.

Not being able to digest fats is also a symptom of gallbladder damage.  Quite a few people have had their gallbladders removed by doctors even though their celiac disease was actually the problem, not the gall bladder.

Another digestive aid that might help is ME + My Gluten Assist from CVS pharmacy.  Open Original Shared Link

I don't know which brand of almonds you are buying, but some of brands are not safe for us to eat.  Any almonds with a coating or glaze is suspect IMHO.  You can make glazed almonds or other nuts yourself though.  Start with a safe plain almond and make them up.  They can make nice gifts for Christmas season.

Some people with celiac have cravings when healing and end up eating a lot more food.  I think that is because our bodies need extra nutrients to heal, and they have been deprived for a long time.  During the recovery from celiac disease is not a good time to go on a diet!

It can be really helpful during recovery to avoid processed foods.  Foods we cook from scratch ourselves are much more reliable.  The first year or year and a half of recovery from celiac damage can be up and down.  It takes months for antibodies to fade away and any little exposure to gluten can start them roaring back to full force.  So we need to be pretty careful.  It is not impossible to live with gluten eaters and feel ok though. I do it myself.  But you can't expect the GE's to keep things safe for you, you need to do that yourself.  They just don't get it usually.

Pepto Bismol may help settle your stomach some. Also peppermint tea is good for getting gas out if you are bloated.

I hope you feel better soon!