Omg...i Might Be On To Something

[AndreaB]

No not yet....trained them at home somewhat, but need them to go before they are 6 months. They are almost there already!

I can just see you trying to train two dogs at a time.

I know, it doesn't work that way.

Correct me if I'm wrong.....it's been awhile since I was helping show dogs.......dogs lead on your left side right? Horses lead on our right side. Seems to me I remember dogs being different.

Now you need to figure out class with work. That ought to make things more interesting.

[Green12]

Hi everybody! I'm back, just coming in here where it's safe I just had a 2 hour phone conversation with my mother. I'm suddenly feeling anxious--I swear she still does not 'get it' and I don't think she ever will. I get the feeling that she is always trying to "match" what I go through by picking up on things that happened years ago and retelling them to make it sound like they were a terrible long standing problem that she had to deal with.

Not to sound petty, but just once, I'd like to feel taken care of (by her). There are things that she just won't hear--just glosses over. I used to go along with it, but now it really gets to me. It really helps to write all this out--I know you guys care, so don't feel you need to answer--I just had to vent.

Patti I am glad you feel safe with us to share and vent And absolutely we care!

I am so sorry about the strained relationship with your mother and feelings of anxiety you have after talking to her .

I think Andrea and Carla gave great advice.

I don't have anything really profound to add, just that I can relate as well. While I love my mother, I don't think she can relate to me when it comes down to it, and often I don't feel nurtured in the way that I guess I would like to be. That probably sounds really selfish. Relationships are hard as it is but when it comes to family there is just so much added "stuff", the parent/child dynamic especially. I try to practice acceptance but it's hard, I guess no matter our age we want our mothers to be our mothers and for us to be the child, and often that isn't the case. Maybe this is helpful, or maybe it isn't, but try to focus on the things you can relate with each other on and build a bridge there, and like Carla suggested, leave the issues that might cause friction out of the converstaion- and see how that goes.

Feel better

The Dave!! Thanks for sharing the new picture of the puppies. I don't think you ever said what their names were, or maybe you did but I missed it a couple hundred pages back They are so cute!

Can't say that Britney Spears pops into my head, nope, never.........well only when she is walking barefoot in a gas station bathroom

I agree we need an additional title for Laura. Your titles were easy because you stormed in here and stirred up trouble with a capitol "T" from the get go Just kidding!

Laura, what are your hobbies, interests, skills? Tell us more about yourself

[jerseyangel]

Thanks Julie,

You're so right about relationships! Thanks so much for all of the kind, wise words

[Rachel--24]

A quick drive-by.....

Just wanting to say have a great night everyone!!

Hugs for everyone here.

G'nite....leaving skid marks......

[dlp252]

I'm seeing my physiatrist on Tuesday. I cannot wait. Oh- a physiatrist is someone who works like a PT but is also am MD and can prescribe medications. The thing I like about mine is that he really wants to treat the whole person. Unlike an orthopedic who will diagnose you, prescribe meds and PT or opt for surgery, physiatrists will try to help you find the root cause of problems and rehabilitate it.

I've never heard of a physiatrist...sounds interesting and wonderful!

[jerseyangel]

A quick drive-by.....

Just wanting to say have a great night everyone!!

Hugs for everyone here.

G'nite....leaving skid marks......

You said "skid marks"

'night Rachel!

[dlp252]

Hi everybody! I'm back, just coming in here where it's safe I just had a 2 hour phone conversation with my mother. I'm suddenly feeling anxious--I swear she still does not 'get it' and I don't think she ever will. I get the feeling that she is always trying to "match" what I go through by picking up on things that happened years ago and retelling them to make it sound like they were a terrible long standing problem that she had to deal with.

Not to sound petty, but just once, I'd like to feel taken care of (by her). There are things that she just won't hear--just glosses over. I used to go along with it, but now it really gets to me. It really helps to write all this out--I know you guys care, so don't feel you need to answer--I just had to vent.

Oh Patti, that's not petty at all! Sometimes we just need our moms! We just need them to be moms. I'm glad you feel like you can come here to let it out!

Hi Donna. I see you.

Just was talking to Mitch about yours and Rachel's dentist. Now he says I have 2 reasons to go down there to have my work done. Of course with Susan, that would be 3.

Could you see if he know of any dentists in the Washington/Northern Oregon area?

I'll come down there, if need be, whenever I have my work done. I don't want to push things with the other work that still needs to be done. I already got mercuried (new word, think glutened) with my other work.

Hi, I was so busy at work and had a few minutes that I thought I could get caught up, but ya'all were busy, lol. I'll ask him when I see him on the 8th.

[jerseyangel]

Oh Patti, that's not petty at all! Sometimes we just need our moms! We just need them to be moms. I'm glad you feel like you can come here to let it out!

Thanks, Donna ,

You guys are the absolute best!

I feel like such a weenie

Hey Richard--I see you! Venturing in here at night--huh?

[dlp252]

Donna - 4 more!!!! Wow!

Guy - "So, what do you like to do in your spare time"

Donna - "Get amalgam's removed, you?" j/k

Hi everyone else!

Ouch! That sucks. Sorry to hear that

[dlp252]

Patti you are NOT a weenie, now cut it out! (said in my best imitation of a motherly voice)

Phew, back from the doctors...what a marathon. I had my 2nd half of my evaluation with the internist...second half because my first half took soo long...as did this one. We had people knocking on the door telling us to get out, lol. She is very thorough though. I asked her if she thought I should take supplementation whilst de-amalgamming and she said yes, but suggested one...can't remember the name, but she said it binds with the heavy metals...she said to take it 4-5 days around the removal...she didn't want me to take that with Vit C or other supplements though, so I guess the Vit C and glut... the rest of the time. I still intend to ask the dentist too.

Then, after I finished with her I had the PT and Chiro appointments. The Chiro was able to make an adjustment in my back that my old chiro never could. I was amazed actually. The PT really worked me over, so as I type here I have an icepack on my neck held in place with a binder clip, lol.

Oh lordy, I have to stay up til 10:00 to spit for the last time, lol. Not sure how I'll do it...

[jerseyangel]

My gosh Donna--what a day you had! I can just picture you sitting there typing with an ice pack and binder clip

Got to keep your eye on the big picture--this is all going to lead to better things What a switch, though, from most doctors--taking TOO much time. That right there is a good sign.

Hope you're comfortable enough to get some sleep tonight--after you spit, of course!

[AndreaB]

The PT really worked me over, so as I type here I have an icepack on my neck held in place with a binder clip, lol.

Oh lordy, I have to stay up til 10:00 to spit for the last time, lol. Not sure how I'll do it...

Take a 1/2-1 hour nap if need be.....be sure to set the alarm.

[happygirl]

x

[Mtndog]

Thanks, Donna ,

You guys are the absolute best!

I feel like such a weenie

Hey Richard--I see you! Venturing in here at night--huh?

Patti said weenie - heh heh heh And rachel said skid marks

Patti- You are not being lame or whiny. I think it must be incredibly frustrating to have that experience with your mom. I'm sorry that this happened to you...BIG HUGS.

The Bev-mobile survived. It was just the timing belt.... valaves and pistions not damaged. YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!! Got it back this afternnon- so happy!

Also found a clinic I think I'm going to make an appointment with. Check this out and let me know what you think:

Open Original Shared Link

And......now I havve anoter reason requiring scientificness. Here's the weird thing about the joint pain, neck and muscular stiffness, etc that I experience. It gets much worse when constipated. Once i finally get it out- my muscles instantly relax.

julie- thanks for attempting to help me figure out the phenergan effect. I think it has something to do with the antihistamine too. Very odd- my doctor told me to try taking pepcid and claritin to see if it would have the same effect. Both have anti-his. That combo didn't.

Here's the other weird thing....phenergan is a distant cousin of thorazine...the sedative they used to give to schizophrenics. MAYBE IT IS ALL IN MY HEAD

[Green12]

Phew, back from the doctors...what a marathon. I had my 2nd half of my evaluation with the internist...second half because my first half took soo long...as did this one. We had people knocking on the door telling us to get out, lol. She is very thorough though. I asked her if she thought I should take supplementation whilst de-amalgamming and she said yes, but suggested one...can't remember the name, but she said it binds with the heavy metals...she said to take it 4-5 days around the removal...she didn't want me to take that with Vit C or other supplements though, so I guess the Vit C and glut... the rest of the time. I still intend to ask the dentist too.

Then, after I finished with her I had the PT and Chiro appointments. The Chiro was able to make an adjustment in my back that my old chiro never could. I was amazed actually. The PT really worked me over, so as I type here I have an icepack on my neck held in place with a binder clip, lol.

Wow Donna, you did have a marathon day of appts. Sounds like you were really worked over at your chiro appt. I always feel a little sore after an adjustment but in the long run it really pays off, I feel more in alignment and experience much less pain/stiffness in the back, neck. Hope it helps

Kind of off topic but I have a question. Does anybody have any thoughts or opinions about green tea??

edit* It's late for me, heading to bed but I don't want you guys, Laura and Bev, to think I overlooked your posts - I will write tomorrow

Goodnight all!

[TriticusToxicum]

Hey Richard--I see you! Venturing in here at night--huh?

Just checking the board for ghosts

[jerseyangel]

Just checking the board for ghosts

So.....Did ya find any?

[Daxin]

Rachel -- I don't know if this has ben suggested yet, but DW says that a good massage can help with lymphatic drainage. She recommends finding a good massage therapist in your area and asking some questions. Your Lymph system, as part of your immune system needs help from time to time ( as we here in Rachelville are well aware of).

There has been a tonne of activity here in the last few days, but I think I'm caught up now.

Hope everyone else is doing well, and has an excellent weekend.

I am off to take DD to a costume party this afternoon. She is not a fan of dressing up, but we'll see if she responds better when she is surrounded by children in costumes.

Fell better all!

[happygirl]

x

[rinne]

Premature post but couldn't resist:

Yeah.....its harder now! Whats up with that??? Is it because I'm close but yet still miles away??

I wanna be at the doctors everyday....asking questions and DOING something!!

Yes...I know....I'm very very impatient.

It shall pass...I know you've all seen it before...I just get like this sometimes.

Sounds like you want to Rachel the treatment. Me too. I envy you your doctors close by I don't know what I am going to do once I have a treatment plan.

Oh, yesterday someone lent me a Rifing machine, have you heard of Royal Raymond Rife? Rifing machines are used to treat Lyme and Cancer and all manner of illness. Here's one of those fortuitous events I love so much - I met this man about four months ago and he plays chrystal bowls, they make the most incredible sounds, and the day I met him I had read a thread on a Lyme site about Rifing machines and I brought it up in regards to the power of sound to transform the body and he said, "I have a Rifing machine upstairs". I had never heard of them until that day. Anyways we have gotten to be friends and yesterday he lent it to me and now I am reading all this information about frequencies and treatments for detoxification and will report back. I am going to experiment on myself, I have entered Lyme Alive territory and girls do things like that here.

[rinne]

Yeah, I used to be swimming, completely submerged, in all the scientificness of mercury toxicity, sadly a lot of it has exited my brain Maybe it's the chunky chocolatey-ness that is to blame....

I found a lot of clues to my personal situation, the in utero mercury toxicity, vaccinations (standard ones given as baby and toddler and then a forced measles at age 18), my own dental work and amalgam fillings, and another interesting clue.......chlorine is known to kill all the good bacteria in the intestinal tract- I was a competetive swimmer and lived in chlorinated pools for a good 14 years . So my defenses were down, undiagnosed celiac thrown in on top of it....a recipe for disaster.

So I know whats wrong, just don't know how to fix it .

Julie, I am sorry that you suffered such an assault on your health doing something that I am assuming you loved. I wish you could find someone who understands how to help you.

I think that I had always tended to be anxious and have a tender tummy, but when I had my severe meltdown it LITERALLY seemed to come out of nowhere.

I still get the urge to run away or "get out of my body" when I get glutened and it is one of sheer panic. No one could EVER explain the length and intensity of my initial anxiety attacks and depression. I went from slightly sad about a breakup with a boyfriend to utter panic- literally overnight. It was the strangest and scariest thing that has ever happened to me.

.......

So I'm wondering if the antihistamine property or the sedative property are what also provides the muscle relaxant effect. Anyone have any thoughts. I'm wondering if some kind of "allergy" is causing my muscle stiffness and joint pain (I'm thinking maybe another food intolerance that I haven't figured out yet).

Oh yeah- and it brightens my mood but that could be because it makes me feel better. Don't know?????????

It makes sense to me that medication works but I am concerned that the danger to that is then we are treating only the symptoms and not the cause and if it is Lyme Disease then it has more time to attack us on the metabollic level and we are tuned out to it because we are not feeling anxious. I have never taken any medication to deal with my circumstances, I think of it as the plus side to Lyme paranoia. I don't think that doing what I have done is the best thing because I know the constant pain and lack of sleep exhausted my adrenal system at one point and there have been way too many days when I have been a starts with a capital B and rhymes with .

Hi everybody! I'm back, just coming in here where it's safe I just had a 2 hour phone conversation with my mother. I'm suddenly feeling anxious--I swear she still does not 'get it' and I don't think she ever will. I get the feeling that she is always trying to "match" what I go through by picking up on things that happened years ago and retelling them to make it sound like they were a terrible long standing problem that she had to deal with.

Not to sound petty, but just once, I'd like to feel taken care of (by her). There are things that she just won't hear--just glosses over. I used to go along with it, but now it really gets to me. It really helps to write all this out--I know you guys care, so don't feel you need to answer--I just had to vent.

Big hugs to you.

Where is our Dingo Girl? The GBB is too funny.

Laura, thank you for your post. I am so glad you have such wonderful supports in your life.

And good morning to everyone else.

It feels like real change is afoot.

[Fiddle-Faddle]

So do all competitive swimmers suffer strange after-effects of the chlorine? That would be a good thing to research, not that anyone wouyld do anything about it . They've known for years that hairdressers have a high rate of miscarriage, but all they do is wear gloves, they don't have anything to protect them from the perm and dye fumes.

I swim every day--it's part of my PT for my shoulder and also helps maintain my sanity. Oh, please don't tell me I have to give that up, too!

[DingoGirl]

hi everybody.....dang, I just skimmed everything and dont' know what's going on EXACTLY.....Andrea, I don't know what is precisely happening with your father, even, but I pray for his health.....and you, you seem to always wear yourself - I mean spread yourself so thin. OUr mother hen.

I am having four days of pure hell, doc has put me on Ritalin, and I am a mess, the first day, took 5 mg., half a pill, and it was fabulous - - -my BRAIN WOKE UP. but not too hyper, it was as though the fog cleared. And then......it's been hell. Very agitated, cranky, TIRED and have felt smashed by steam roller all week.....truly miserable. So....I can't take ritalin, and everything else is freaking expensive, though those things didn't have this effect on me. Am supposed to start my new job next week.....I am about to cry....that feeling of being enshrouded in fog and not quite knowing why, hardly being able to think/process clearly and knowing I have to start trying to be capable and smart and perform well next week...makes me desparately anxious and sick. Quit caffeine this week, too (though it was half-caf in coffee the weeks prior to this).....stomach is in a bomb every day...... Could still be reacting to gluten binge as have breakouts that are not normally this bad.

Is there another forum where I should talk my brain stuff? Except that I don't wanna leave. And meet any new people. I am safe here with you guys......

My brain and its futility makes me want to......well I won't even go into how utterly despondent it makes me and the thoughts I ahve of this lifetime of struggle.

Love you guys.....am going to TRY to hang a curtain rod today with the Dremmel, we will see if it works, TRY to do some yard work...TRY to do so many things. am in a fog and a blur - - it took THREE klonepin last night to fall asleep and I don't think I'm quite awake. And, I'm so internally agitated that my normal fun/relaxing things are just NOT Fun at all.....

so sorry to be such a downer....no more Ritalin for me - it's hell - - so i'll just be detoxing from taht for a few days.

BTW, Sudoko or Sooduko or soduko or whatever it's called is what they play in HELL. That form of torture that they call a "game" had me almost in tears.......

[AndreaB]

Hope everyone else is doing well, and has an excellent weekend.

Good to see you Ryan!

Is there another forum where I should talk my brain stuff? Except that I don't wanna leave. And meet any new people. I am safe here with you guys......

so sorry to be such a downer....no more Ritalin for me - it's hell - - so i'll just be detoxing from taht for a few days.

BTW, Sudoko or Sooduko or soduko or whatever it's called is what they play in HELL. That form of torture that they call a "game" had me almost in tears.......

You don't need to go anywhere else to talk about brain stuff. This is an ever evolving thread that deals with all our health concerns. We want to keep you safe.

You are not a downer......quit thinking like that. You are our wonderful Susie Q, Susan, Dingogirl. We've missed you.

I haven't played that game and don't think I better. I'm the kind that gets easily addicted to games.

[jerseyangel]

Yea Susan, You don't need to go anywhere else! Stay right here, where you're safe, and we'll all do what we can to help and support you.

I also have issues with anxiety--my depression had gotten a ton better on the diet, but I'm so anxious a lot of the time. It's no fun to be foggy

When you feel particularly sad, either come here or PM me or anyone of us that you feel comfortable with. Sometimes, talking things out with another person can help.