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[dlp252]

Donna, How was your resting day? It sounded very nice, actually! How cute do your cousin's beagles sound?

It was good. I felt much better than normal so I was inspired to bring down some Christmas decorations. I wasn't going to put up anything this year...last year didn't feel like putting up much either, but I was suddenly inspired this morning. Don't have much up but it feels better, lol. I restrung 4 bracelets and relaxed the rest of the day.

Somewhere during the afternoon, I developed an earache sometimes when I swallow. I stayed outside for quite a long time yesterday trying to get the newest beagle to do her business outside, lol. I will be totally pissed off if I'm getting an ear infection, harumph! Last year, in October, I had to cancel a trip to Australia and Tahiti because of strep throat/ear infection/sinus infection. Grrr.

Those darned beagles are tooo very cute, lol.

I'll be glad to get an update from Andrea.

Ditto, big time!

Ladies, I am a Grandmother, a baby girl has appeared.

Hoooraaaayyyy!!! Congratulations! And, what is her name...was that mentioned before, lol.

[jerseyangel]

It was good. I felt much better than normal so I was inspired to bring down some Christmas decorations. I wasn't going to put up anything this year...last year didn't feel like putting up much either, but I was suddenly inspired this morning. Don't have much up but it feels better, lol. I restrung 4 bracelets and relaxed the rest of the day.

Somewhere during the afternoon, I developed an earache sometimes when I swallow. I stayed outside for quite a long time yesterday trying to get the newest beagle to do her business outside, lol. I will be totally pissed off if I'm getting an ear infection, harumph! Last year, in October, I had to cancel a trip to Australia and Tahiti because of strep throat/ear infection/sinus infection. Grrr.

Those darned beagles are tooo very cute, lol.

Oh no You can not have an ear infection. You have a cruise to go on very soon! Darned, cute beagle

I'm happy you're putting up decorations this year--I don't really feel like doing all it takes either, but we'll feel better when they're up and it's closer to Christmas. Did you follow all that

I'm drinking my new tea--it's very good and soothing

[CarlaB]

Ladies, I am a Grandmother, a baby girl has appeared.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

[dlp252]

I'm going to have to get me some of that tea, lol. That together with my valerian root and melatonin ought to really help me sleep, lol. Yah, darned cute beagle, lol.

[jerseyangel]

I'm going to have to get me some of that tea, lol. That together with my valerian root and melatonin ought to really help me sleep, lol. Yah, darned cute beagle, lol.

Yep, I'm hoping it'll help me sleep better--I've been waking up every hour or so and then going right back to sleep. I'd love to know what that's all about.

[Rachel--24]

OMG....the past few hours since my last post have been HORRID.

I didnt have my Bioset appt....I forgot that today is freakin "Black Friday" and the Bioset clinic is where the mall is! It was HEINOUS...I could not find parking anywhere...even in the surrounding neighborhoods. It was a massive traffic jam...I got stuck in it. I didnt know what to do because

they will still charge for the appt.....if you dont show up. I NEVER EVER leave home without my cell....but this ONE time....I forgot it. I cant believe my luck...can it get any worse??

I finally parked in the loading zone....ran in to tell them I cant park anywhere. So I didnt get my appt...I told her I wanted to reshedule but they are all BOOKED up for the next two weeks. This means I cant get ANY treatments....even though I've already prepaid for 10 appts.

When I paid for the appts I wanted to schedule them all.....the receptionist said it wasnt necessary....that each time I come I could just schedule for the next appt. I told her I needed appts for after work and what if there arent any available?? She said there are always available appts during the evening...that its not a problem.

So NOW...there are no appointments!! She told me I could come in the morning...HELLO...I WORK in the morning!

THEY are the ones who have said that the treatments are MOST efective if you come at least once a week. Thats what THEY said...now all of a sudden its no big deal if I miss two weeks because they are booked up??? WTF???

The reason I am most mad is because I PREPAID for these appointments!! So why should I NOT be able to get in......while others who are new patients are getting appointments??? It DOES NOT seem right to me.

So I got mad....told her that I didnt have time to discuss it because I was in the freakin loading zone outside....that I would call her later.

Soooo THEN....I am crying in the car....driving back to my moms. Just crying because I am frusterated with everything being so darned difficult. I get to my mom's and she sees me crying....the "motherly instinct" kicks in...FULL FORCE. She wants to call the bioset receptionist.....I tell her NO. I do NOT need my mom calling for me everytime something goes wrong.....its kind of embarassing.

I tell her I will take care of it myself...that I dont want her calling. So she goes in the other room and next thing I know I hear "and my daughter....she was just there....she couldnt find parking...now she is crying...she is very sick....blah, blah, blah."

So...then I got MORE UPSET.

My mom doesnt understand that she doesnt have to do *everything* for me...especially when I say "Please dont do it." It *is* embarassing to me.....maybe it shouldnt be...but it *is*. She doesnt see why I feel this way....she feels like I'm rejecting her help and that she cant do anything right.

Everything is OK now but I am drained. Too many heinosities in one week. So NOW my mom has gotten me an appt. for Saturday. Tomorrow and next week I have to go on SATURDAY. I'm not happy about this at all...I felt like demanding all my money back. Why should someone who prepays have to go on SATURDAY??? Saturday I should be home in Manteca. Its all because the freakin receptionist was too lazy to schedule all my appts at once.

Sorry for the rant.

I have no scientificness to share. I was too busy staring at brake lights the whole time I should have been having my treatment.

Ladies, I am a Grandmother, a baby girl has appeared.

Ahhhhh...some good news!!! CONGRATULATIONS Rinne!!!

How precious....cant wait to hear all about her.

[jerseyangel]

Aw Rachel I don't blame you for being upset--I'd be, too.

[CarlaB]

Sorry it didn't work out today, Rachel.

[dlp252]

RACHEL!!!!! Absolute HEINIOSITY!!!! I'm so sorry. I can't believe that. Okay, that about cements my decision to wait until AFTER I come back from vacation and maybe even after Christmas, lol. I don't want to hassle with holiday traffic/parking. I can't believe she didn't schedule your appointments. The HN receptionist has my PT/chiro appointments scheduled through the end of December, so it's possible to do. Grrr!

[Rachel--24]

Rachel, How did you do yesterday? It about broke my heart that you were spending the day alone. I even told my husband that it must be some kind of cosmic joke that I can feel so close to people who are in reality thousands of miles away. You know that if we were closer geographically, you would have been invited to our table with us having whatever you could manage.

Patti....I was touched by your post. All of you are so sweet.

I was actually ok yesterday...it was my choice to be by myself....I think it was better than going and feeling out of place.....or reacting to stuff. At least last year I *thought* I could eat a gluten-free meal and be ok. I surely wasnt ok....there were major tears the next day but at least while I ate dinner last year I felt *somewhat* normal. Last year I had turkey, yams, green beans, salad, fruits with some cool whip, Whole Foods gluten-free Bakehouse corn bread, yogurt, gluten-free eggnog AND gluten-free/cf chocolate cake from a gluten-free bakery here.

So.. overall yesterday was not bad.... but today...HEINOUS.

Anyways your thoughtfulness made me smile.

I have an update from Andrea.

She is doing fine....her dads appearance is about what she'd expected. She said he's lost weight and obviously not as healthy as he looked 6 months ago...but he's holding his own. The kids are bored but Monday they might go to the zoo.

They almost missed their connecting flight yesterday and then their "neighbors" at the motel were loud and kept them up till 2 in the morning. I think Andrea sounded tired.

She said to tell everyone hi. She cant get on her dads computer...its not working.... but she'll be back home on Tuesday.

Today she went to her dads dyalisis (sp?) treatment. He wanted her to go with him and see what its like. She hasnt got a chance to talk to him about the cancer yet but she still wants to have that talk with him.

I dont know if she's gonna call me again but if not....we'll hear from her on Tuesday.

[Rachel--24]

RACHEL!!!!! Absolute HEINIOSITY!!!! I'm so sorry. I can't believe that. Okay, that about cements my decision to wait until AFTER I come back from vacation and maybe even after Christmas, lol. I don't want to hassle with holiday traffic/parking. I can't believe she didn't schedule your appointments. The HN receptionist has my PT/chiro appointments scheduled through the end of December, so it's possible to do. Grrr!

Yeah....she totally could have scheduled all of my appointments when I paid for them....she just didnt WANT to. Then tonight she told my mom on the phone that I should have just scheduled all of my appointments ahead of time....to AVOID this. I'm trying not to get overly upset.....trying to take miamia's example and put it all behind me...I think I'll have to sleep it off. The recptionist is young....she NEVER seems to wanna be bothered with anything. I should have pushed the issue about scheduling the appts. but instead I took her word for it that it wouldnt be a problem. Thats the LAST time I do that.

As far as the parking situation....I asked her if it was gonna be like this from here on out. She said no...its just because today is "Black Friday". I'm thinking parking is still gonna be difficult....maybe not like today but definately its gonna be more crowded then ususal. I'll probably have to deal with the same thing trying to make my appt. tomorrow.

I didnt expect that mall to be crowded like that....I would expect it to be heinous at Valley Fair....but not there. Guess I was wrong.

Oh well...when you get back from the cruise I'll give you an update on the parking situation.

[miamia]

rinne-

congratulations on the new babe!!!

Rachel-

sorry to hear about your day- that sounds terrible.

I am having a terrible day myself. I felt so sick all day. SO SICK!! I had called all last week to get an appointment at this health center I go to and no one called me back. So finally on Wednesday I got in touch with the girl I see there ( we are friends as well) and she said she would see what she would do about seeing me on friday or saturday. So I never heard from her and I felt bad but last night even though it was thanksgiving I reached out to her and she text mesaged my phone saying she wasen't gonna be in until monday and she would call me with her schedule. So I called to see if any one else was gonna be in becasue I was really in alot of pain and she texted me again and Wrote "No."I know her very well and I know this is her attempt to be rude which really suprised and upset me. I know its not her job to come in when she dosen't have to but she is also my friend and knows I am in alot of pain an dI wished she had at least called me. So today I called her and just said I really wanted to just talk to her and told her I was really uncomfortable and just wanted to set up a definite appointment. And she never called me back. SO now I have no idea when I will be able to get in there and I am in so much discomfort. I just feel so frustrated,it turns out no one was in the office all week thats why I never got a call back and . ha dI known this I would have gone in the week before. I know my health is not her top priority but I always go out of my way for her and I guess I thought it would go both ways or at least she would call me. Maybe I am being too sensitive because I feel so bad. I guess i am just sick of feeling this bad

I am sorry about the rant

Miamia

[Rachel--24]

I think there's a good chance the resutls could be negative, however, since I've had it for so long. I'm looking forward to getting them back.

Carla...I hope you get your results this week. I also hope that even though you've been sick a long time...something will show up.

I was really impatient to drive home tonight....mainly because I wanted to see if Igenix sent my results back. I planned on heading home after my bioset appt.....for once I couldnt wait to get to the mailbox. Now I have to stay because of my appt. being rescheduled for tomorrow. I just really wanna have some definate answers...we all do....waiting is so hard sometimes.

For some reason this whole week has been rough on me....I'm not sure whats going on.

[Rachel--24]

Maybe I am being too sensitive because I feel so bad. I guess i am just sick of feeling this bad

mia,

You and me both. I know I'm more sensitive when I'm not feeling good. Everything is MAGNIFIED and I get really hurt really easy. I tend to push people away instead of letting people help me.

No need to apologize...I've been ranting all week....sometimes we just need to get it all out.

Thats too bad about your friend not being there for you.

Maybe she was busy with the holiday or something but still....she could have responded in a more caring and polite manner.

I would have been hurt by that too. Especially now that I seem to be overly sensitive...cry easily etc.

Does anyone else feel like they got more sensitive and cry easily since they got sick....or is it just me??

I'm sorry you were in alot of pain today.

I hope tomorrow will be much better for you.

[Green12]

Hello everyone

Just dropping in to say hi and catching up with you all. I had my "Thanksgiving" today since we have to rotate with my brother and his inlaws. I am wiped, I cooked the whole meal so that I could make sure it was gluten-free- I think I was in the kitchen for 3 days I am so over it now. You do all that work and it's over in seconds flat. But the good news is everything came out really well and it was nice to be all together.

Congrats rinne on the birth of your granddaughter!!!

Rachel, so sorry today was such a difficult day. You know everynow and then one of those days comes around, everything will look different tomorrow Thanks for the Andrea update as well.

Laura- thanks for sharing that from church. I'm glad you finally feel like you have found a doctor that you can work with, that does make all the difference in the world.

Carla- love the new picture, dare I say Luke is a little hottie You have such wonderful kids! Sorry about the wheat in your favorite shampoo

Miamia- sorry you are not feeling well I have been thinking of you, hope tomorrow is a better day.

Susie Q- how did your meal turn out? I'm glad you stayed close and went to your brothers, and that the girls got to go too

Donna- is the insomnia any better? Sounds like you had a nice holiday.

Hi Patti! What tea are you drinking? Inquiring minds want to know

[rinne]

Miamia and Rachel, I am sorry to hear you both had such awful days. I often find it difficult. When I was in Calgary I was in a restaurant and they had nothing they could serve me, I was in tears about it.

Thank you everyone for your congratulations, I am still in shock.

[CarlaB]

I'm definately more sensitive. Fortunately Adam understands this and deals with it.

I have an email group of friends from high school. Obviously, we've known each other a LONG time and are very close. It's a group that's half guys ... anyway, there is a lot of fun, but there is also teasing and sarcasm. I thought about taking a break from it for a while a couple weeks ago, but didn't. Then a couple days ago someone was sarcastically teasing me, but I mentally cannot wrap my mind around that anymore... it just seems mean. I know he didn't mean it that way, but my mind seems to have trouble understanding things like sarcasm or insensitivity.

Now my friends are worried because they think I'm so depressed that I'm withdrawing from the world. I told them I wanted to hear from them individually, but I can't deal with the group dynamics right now. I also told them that of course I'm somewhat depressed ... how can you be sick this long and not have some problems dealing with it mentally?

Mia, your friend probably meant nothing ... people don't understand how sick we are, thus they can't act as they would if we had something more obvious, like cancer and dealing with chemo. But just like I can't with my friends, you can't understand it -- AT ALL!! That's how I am anyway. I used to be pretty sharp dealing with people and loved to be around them ... now I don't really like being around people and socializing. I don't think it's depression, rather I'm too fatigued and confused to participate. And I can't stand the phone at all. I hate it.

Thank you everyone for your congratulations, I am still in shock.

I bet you are!! I can't wait for that day!!!!

[Green12]

Does anyone else feel like they got more sensitive and cry easily since they got sick....or is it just me??

It isn't just you. I have always been a sensitive emotional person, but everything is magnified for me when I am either 1) detoxing or 2) reacting.

Rachel, I would think you are really cycling through a lot of things right now with your treatments, it might (in the end) be a good thing?? Not that it is good to feel this way or experience these emotions, but it might be a release and when the clouds part you will experience the next level of healing. Just a thought.

[Rachel--24]

Rachel, I would think you are really cycling through a lot of things right now with your treatments, it might (in the end) be a good thing?? Not that it is good to feel this way or experience these emotions, but it might be a release and when the clouds part you will experience the next level of healing. Just a thought.

Julie....I thought about this....you had mentioned it to me before but I guess in my head I'm always thinking....."arent I suppossed to feeling better?"

I still dont understand the treatments that well...and I dont know if there are suppossed to be clouds?

I guess I just thought I would walk out of the treatment and feel "better".

[happygirl]

x

[jerseyangel]

Wow, Mia--you certainly didn't deserve to be treated like that by your friend. Yes, she may have been busy, but that was no excuse for the way she spoke to you. I'm so sorry you're not feeling well, and you don't need this on top of everything else. Rant away--that's what we're here for

Julie I was just thinking about you! I'm happy that you had a nice holiday, but can relate to cooking for days and having the meal be all over with in just a few minutes! And then there are the dishes... The tea I was talking about is "Tension Tamer" by Celestial Seasonings. Rinne suggested it to me

Laura--aren't friends like that great? I have a friend from my former neighborhood in Georgia, where we lived for 7+ years. We don't get together often, but when we do its like no time has passed at all. Our families were close--their 2 boys were best friends with ours.

I agree with what you all were saying about being more sensitive. I've always been that way, but when I'm sick, it's 100 times worse. I get downright paranoid! My husband realizes this, and knows what to say (or what NOT to say ) I've taken to retreating from people as much as possible when I feel like that just so I avoid the hurt feelings. I tend to 'second guess' everything people say to me--like, what did they really mean by that? The cranky factor is turned way up, too. Ugh

Rachel, thanks for the Andrea update. Hope today is a better one for you

On a happier note, we are going to put up the Christmas trees tomorrow and decorate the house.

[miamia]

mia,

You and me both. I know I'm more sensitive when I'm not feeling good. Everything is MAGNIFIED and I get really hurt really easy. I tend to push people away instead of letting people help me.

No need to apologize...I've been ranting all week....sometimes we just need to get it all out.

Thats too bad about your friend not being there for you.

Maybe she was busy with the holiday or something but still....she could have responded in a more caring and polite manner.

I would have been hurt by that too. Especially now that I seem to be overly sensitive...cry easily etc.

Does anyone else feel like they got more sensitive and cry easily since they got sick....or is it just me??

I'm sorry you were in alot of pain today.

I hope tomorrow will be much better for you.

Oh my god rachel-

before I got sick I never cried- I used to have this joke with my roommate who cried all the time- that my new years resolution every year was to cry more!! Now its like daily activity wither becuase of pain or emotional stuff. Especially if I am really not feeling well I feel like everyone is mad at me or somethign if I drive my mom crazy if I am not feeling well and shes being quiet- I feel like I definitly did something wrong this is our repeating conversation

ME-"are you mad at me?"

Mom- "Only when you ask me that"

[miamia]

Laura-

thank you so much for your kind words- you are such a sweetheart. I am glad you had such a good time with your friend- it is always good to see people who remind you of who you were before you were sick and remind you you are still that person despite the illness you deal with. You are more than your illness- I think we all forget this sometimes.

Julie-

I have been thiking about you too. Any news with the igenix test.? Have you ordered it yet?

Carla-

Yeah I feel like telling people just not to tell jokes around me sometimes. Especially if I am not feeling well sarcasm of any kind is the last thing I need. I also feel like there is some truth to it and it really gets to me even if its obviosly meant to relieve tension it seems ot just cause more. (I hope that makes sense)

[jerseyangel]

ME-"are you mad at me?"

Mom- "Only when you ask me that"

This is spooky! I have this litle conversation with my husband way too often

[miamia]

Laura-

how are you feeling?

have you recovered from eating all those fods for your test/? Did you discover new stuff you could eat?

Miamia